Can’t Win Me Back by Ginger Sue

"Madam fell in love with you at first sight?" Xavier's eyes widened. He was burning with curiosity.
Jasper had a dull look in his eyes. He poured some wine for himself to drink. This was meant to be fine wine that tasted rich and
sweet. However, he could only taste a burning bitterness at the back of his throat as he drank it.
"It's a pity that we can never go back in time. I cannot become the one who falls in love with her first.
This will be something that I regret in my entire life."
There was something else he regretted. His greatest regret of all was that he had caused Alyssa to lose the child that she longed
for. She lost the child that was most precious to her. And in that, she had lost the chance to become a mother.
Jasper let out a heavy sigh. It almost felt like it even hurt to breathe. "I will do my best to make her happy. I'm just not sure if I will
be able to do it well."
After all, happiness was subjective. It would only count if the other party felt satisfied.
"Mr. Beckett, out of everyone I've met, you are well and truly the person who loves most deeply. You and Madam are the kindest
and most soft-hearted people I've ever met."
As Xavier uttered those words, he was reminded of the look in Maggie's clear eyes when she was on the brink of tears. Each
time he saw her like that, his heart broke for her.
"More than you making Madam happy, I wish that the both of you can become the comfort for each other's souls. I also hope that
you can experience happiness."
After all, Jasper was someone who had nothing but his looks before he fell in love with Alyssa.

He used to be soulless and exhausted all the time. It was Alyssa who made flowers bloom in his desertlike soul.
Jasper thought of Alyssa, and the thought of her made him smile.
"You don't have to worry about me. I have found my happiness. My greatest joy is being able to stay by Lyse's side and make
her happy."
Then, he coughed softly and said, "That's enough about me. Let's talk about you. You've really taken a fancy to Maggie?"
"I think I really have."
Xavier felt his chest tighten. He laughed, "Today is Maggie's birthday. I brought fresh flowers and a present to see her."
Jasper raised his brow slightly.
The last time Xavier fancied someone was when he started going to university. He had a crush on the woman for four years.
After she graduated, she got married and started a family with one of his seniors.
Subsequently, she remarried twice. Xavier, on the other hand, had never gotten married before. He was still a bachelor.
This was his very first time pursuing a love interest.
The only thing was that his current love interest was incompatible with him.
"She accepted my flowers but not my present. She rejected my confession, too."
Xavier's hands shook as his heart throbbed. He tightened his grip on his glass and said, "Mr. Beckett, am I really such a useless
person?

"I was reminded of the first time when I went to her place. I looked down at her place of residence. I was even prejudiced against
her. I thought that only vain women would end up working at that sort of place. How could I have thought that? What do I have?
Why did I put myself on that high pedestal..."
Emotions stirred within him, and he began to choke on his tears. He stuttered, "It was only right for her to reject me. I've gone
over the top. I'm not good enough."
Jasper was stunned. Although he could tell that Xavier had feelings for Maggie, he hadn't expected his feelings for her to have
grown so much. He certainly hadn't expected to hear that he really ended up professing his love to Maggie.
Compared to Xavier, his old self had far less courage and boldness in loving someone. Yet, he was now acting like he had the
moral high ground. He was trying to control his feelings.
What right did he have? He wasn't qualified to do so at all.
"That's not true, Xavier. In my eyes, you have always been an excellent secretary. It is all thanks to you that I am able to get to
where I am today."
Xavier's heart raced. He was so moved that his eyes twinkled. He replied incoherently, "Mr. B-Beckett, don't say that. No, I was
just doing my job!"
"What I meant to say is that you are a good man. Don't underestimate yourself."
Jasper looked at him with a sullen yet humble gaze. He spoke in a serious tone, as if he were a loving father, "If your feelings for
Maggie are true, I'd say to just go for it. But the timing just isn't right now.
"At the very least, you should wait until she comes of age. Then, you can pursue her relentlessly. You can watch over her quietly
for now. But remember not to interrupt her student life.
"I'm guessing that this was part of the reason why she'd rejected you. She's still a student. She needs to focus on her studies
first."