Can’t Win Me Back by Ginger Sue

Jasper's family name and his good looks added to the pressure of the doctor who received him. The doctor asked cautiously, "Um. Mr. Beckett, what brings you here?"
His shaky tone betrayed his nervousness, but he immediately assured Jasper with confidence, "Don't worry, Mr. Beckett. Our hospital prides itself on tight patient confidentiality. I will not say a word about your visit to me today."
Jasper wasn't too concerned about the gossip surrounding his visit to the men's health specialist. After all, his loyalty and love for Alyssa was a widely-known fact. Although the speculations might sting his ego, it did not bother him very much. Given how subservient he acted around Alyssa, he could handle the rumors of his alleged "erectile dysfunction" if it happened.
"Doctor, I have a question." A look of trouble crept up his face after a pause. "Can a vasectomy potentially lower one's libido?"
"The primary purpose of a vasectomy is to prevent sperm from being ejaculated for fertilization. It doesn't impact libido," the doctor clarified.
Following a brief pause, Jasper hesitantly whispered, "Is there any way to lower my libido?"
The doctor, who had rarely come across a difficult male patient like Jasper, hesitated. "The only solution... is to take medication. Still, Mr. Beckett, I would caution against this measure to prevent any negative effects on your health.
"Besides, your problem is not an issue at all. Cold showers will offer a similar effect."
Jasper had tried taking cold showers in a futile attempt to rein in his
uncontrollable desire for Alyssa, which had scared even himself. He had spiraled out of control, leading to the incident last night.
In the heat of the moment, all he had in mind was to dominate a woman as prideful as Alyssa, reducing her to crying and begging for mercy under him. He was too out of it and hot-blooded to process her pleas.
Every time he touched her, he couldn't hold back his feelings. Considering the mental pressure Justin had exerted on him, he feared that he might snap again soon. Yet, he could not afford to hurt Alyssa anymore.
"I'll take the medication. Which one would you recommend?" Jasper was resolved with his decision.
"How about I prescribe you some medication with sedative effects? That will reduce the negative impact on your health. I believe that the sedative effects might calm your nerves from high libido," the doctor proposed.
"Very well," Jasper agreed. Pursing his lips, he added, "Please schedule a vasectomy for me as well."
The doctor's jaw fell when he heard Jasper's request, particularly knowing his relationship with Alyssa Taylor, the heiress of Belbanks' most elite family. Why did Jasper decide on a vasectomy when the couple was young and childless?
"I know what you're thinking." Jasper, feeling a stabbing pain in his chest, said glumly, "We lost a child to miscarriage due to my neglect. Because of that incident, she is now infertile. If so, I would like to join her. If she can't have kids, I will get my vasectomy as well. I shall never dream of having children."
The doctor's eyes widened in shock at the depth of Jasper's affection for Alyssa. Jasper slowly rose from his seat and repeated, "Please arrange for the vasectomy. I want it done as soon as possible."
After leaving the men's health specialist, Jasper inhaled deeply before making his way to Alyssa's room. Suddenly, he stopped in his tracks and spun around.
"Seems like you've forgotten everything you learned from military school." Axel, leaning against a pillar with folded arms, studied Jasper carefully not far away.
Jasper's eyes widened in surprise. Either he was too focused on thoughts about Alyssa to notice Axel tailing him, or Axel-an elite special agent was exceptionally brilliant at covertly tracking the others.